Starting Over

Not only the name of a reality show on daytime tv, but the phase of my life now. New city, new job, new car, new life. Today, my first day back from vacation, I was just slapped in the face with the reality that I have been given a chance for a whole new start and I really need to build my way up from here. It is definitely humbling, but also makes life a bit easier, so that I'm not searching for a "better" job any more, I'm not looking for a "nicer" apartment or different car. I have been given the opportunity to start my life from here. I can take it and make it what I want or I can turn this into an extension of my previous life. I will work my butt off at my two jobs, which offer low pay, but stick with them and hopefully work my way up. I will make the payments on my four cylinder Escort and be happy that I have the chance at having a new car. I will stay at my apartment and be thankful that someone gave me a place without doing a credit check, and build my credit up through them. I am thankful that my second job hired me before they got all my reference checks back which apparently weren't very good. I wanted to cry, I wanted to hide, but then I realized this is it...this is my chance. My life starts now. Starting from scratch is a whole lot better than not starting at all.