Thursday, August 19, 2004

Hope everyone is well. Things are picking up over here in the Chi-town area, which is why I haven't been able to post in awhile. I am working part time in an office on the north side. I am dating someone named Bryan who is great. I'm just settling in a whole lot more, which brings me to my next point. Sabrina's Travels are over; for now anyways. My adventures in the UK are done and I am living a new life here in the city, so this blog will be ending. I may start a new one about life as a twenty-something woman in Chicago and the ups and down of trying to move up in the career world and applying for law school. We'll see.

I debated over whether to post this or not, but Ronan is having (another) baby with his (first) baby's momma's 17 year old (former) friend. Yes, it is legal in the UK to have sex with a 17 year old. Since I have no contact with him at all, that was another reason to end this blog, b/c nothing mentioned previously here is really relevant to my life anymore. I do still chat to Jason occasionally, but less and less now. I hope he does come to visit because he's never been to the U.S. and I think it would be cool.

In the meantime, though, the closest I'll get to Ireland will be at this weekend's Irish Fest in Milwaukee, Wisconsin. Bryan and I are driving up there Saturday morning.

So thanks to everyone who read this journal, and I hope you enjoyed the journey as much I did.

Remember "take care of yourself and each other." :-)
Jerry Springer

Wednesday, August 04, 2004

I looked up the meanings of my dreams online and they all point to this:
From www.avcweb.com
The circulatory system is affected by our female energy and because of this we see dreams often link problems in this area with mother. Mother may not have bonded properly with us at birth and because of this as an infant we feel unloved. A new infant learns how to love from mother. If mother does not give love unconditionally (e.g. white heart presented to dreamer in dream) the dreamer has missed out on a vital lesson which is likely to lead to difficulty with understanding his/her own feelings. The normal reaction is to suppress the negative feelings or lack of love from mother and to rationalize things instead of feeling them. People who operate this way find it difficult to show compassion towards others. They show love in the way they learned. If you live up to my expectations then I'll love you - if you fall short of my standards I'll withdraw my love.
The heart requires emotional flow to stay balanced and healthy. Emotional problems only lead to physical problems if balance is not restored. The flow must be in both directions! People who constantly give of themselves and never receive are as likely to develop physical problems as those who never give.

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I guess Ronan was right when he said I give too much. It can't be good for my psyche. Well, right now I'm feeling really down about myself, and I'm supposed to go out with this guy tomorrow night and all I really feel like doing is hiding in my room. I'll go; I'm feeling better now than earlier, but I hate feeling like this. It comes and goes but boy does it come when I am staying at my parents' house. I'm sure loads of people feel that way and have that kind of relationship with their parents. Well, at least if I believe what I see on TV, I think so.

Tuesday, August 03, 2004

I never realized how much I used my glasses until I lost them. Owwee, my head hurts. I am searching and applying for jobs online and I really need those specs. How I managed to lose them when I keep them in a big ass shiny silver glasses case is beyond me. That's almost as bad as when I lost my driver's license the day after I got it renewed. Hey, I found it, so it all worked out in the end. The really funny thing, though, was although I had to get the license renewed anyways, I didn't have my old one because it got lost with my wallet in Manchester. D'oh!

My eyeballs are really killing me here, so I can't stand any more unnecessary time at the computer. Oh, I did visit the new Millenium Park in Chicago, and though I previously thought it sucked when seeing it on TV and from a distance, but when I went and experienced it, it was pretty nifty. I can actually see why the sculpture is called Cloudgate instead of 'the bean', too. ;-)

Hope all is well with everyone.

Best,
Sabrina :-)