Dreams

I just remembered some of the dreams I had last night. They were quite disturbing. I'm just going to post some of the things I find in the online dream dictionary;

Casket

To see a casket in your dream, indicates that it is time to end a situation or relationship. Additionally, it symbolizes a completion of a project or lifestyle and a beginning of another. In this regards, this symbol may represent new opportunities.

Corpse

To see a corpse in your dream, represents an aspect of yourself that has died. Or it may mean that you are unexpressive. You have shut yourself down and are dead inside.

Campus

To dream that you are on a campus, indicates your need to expand your thinking/knowledge and challenge yourself mentally.

To dream that you are at the funeral of an unknown person, suggests that something in your life is supposed to put to rest or put aside so that you can make room for something new. You need to investigate further what aspect or component of your life you need to let go.

To see a burial in your dream, signifies that you have gotten rid of your bad habits or freed yourself from a negative situation. You are finally letting go of something.

To dream that you are burying a living person, signifies emotional turmoil. Alternatively, it suggests that you are being buried by problems and stresses of your waking life.

In the dream, the person came back to life before the burial.

And this funeral took place on a campus, in a different country...

To dream that you are swimming, suggests that you are exploring aspects of your unconscious mind and emotions. The dream may be a sign that you are seeking some sort of emotional support. It is a common dream image for people going through therapy.

To dream that you are wearing a swimsuit, suggests that you are feeling exposed or emotionally vulnerable. Consider how you feel in the swimsuit. If you are comfortable, then it signifies a life of ease, relaxation and leisure. If you feel uncomfortable, then it represents a lack of self confidence. (uncomfortable)

To see a head in your dream, signifies wisdom, intellect, understanding and rationality. It may also represent your accomplishments, self-image, and perception of the world. The dream may also be metaphor to indicate that you are "ahead" in some situation or that you need to get ahead.

I also somehow went into the wrong part of the wrong church... b/c of this some big alarm went off. I was like, "I was just looking for *can't remember*" "Well, we don't have those/do that in this church" big hubub

Church
To see the outside of the church in your dream, signifies sacredness and spiritual nourishment. It is representative of your value system and the things you hold sacred.

To dream that you are in a church, suggests that you are seeking for some spiritual enlightenment and guidance. You are looking to be uplifted in some way. Perhaps you have made some mistakes in the past which have set you back on your path toward your goals. With proper support, you will get on the right track again. Alternatively, it may also mean that you are questioning and debating your life path and where it is leading. You are reevaluating what you want to do.

2010

Happy New Year! I can't believe it has been so long since I posted here. I've been myspacing and facebooking mostly, though. What I miss about this blog, though, is an anonymous audience. I did not blog a lot of things on my social network pages b/c I was afraid of how my friends and family might react. It is so much easier to air things out to an anonymous audience, just out into the abyss.

So, I am still working towards law school. I plan to take the LSAT in June of this year. Still have to study a lot and pay down my undergraduate loans. It's been five years since I first 'seriously' planned on law school, and it's about time I got a little bit more 'serious' about it.

I also think it is time for another trip. I have been in America for five years now and that is quite a long time for someone with my traveling heart. A few things have happened that make this more difficult as well, including having to use a cane now. I injured my knee a couple of months ago, and am still recovering. It's times like this when you wonder why you didn't do things before? When things were easier...when you didn't have such obstacles? Why didn't you jump at every opportunity?

Scrapbooking.... just popped into my head b/c Mom walked into the room and showed me a scrapbooking pin she got for me. Scrapbook stores in the area have been closing left and right. A couple of weeks ago, I went to the final of the final inventory closeout sale for the Scrapbook store near where Danielle used to live. When I started scrapbooking again after an unintended hiatus, I realized how long it had been when all of my pens and markers were dried up. This was after Mike's death, when life became complicated and hectic. Now, it seems, I do most of my 'scrapbooking' online; creating collages, blingees, etc. With this new batch of inventory, though, I hope that the scrapbooking bug bites once again and I can find some joy and solace in the craft.

There has been this commercial on TV asking, "What do you want to do before you die?" It's for some new MTV psuedo reality show. But I thought, "I have no idea". The only thing that really came to mind was going to law school. Now that I've had some more time to think, I can definitely list some places to which I would like to travel, like the Pyramids, Switzerland, Statue of Liberty.... I'd also like to learn sign language, speak French fluently.... What else? Find a cure for cancer? Well, I don't think that one is easy to fulfill. My life has been about survival for too long now. When this blog started, "Sabrina's Travels" was all about documenting all the great things I was seeing and experiencing in the world. Yes, I had a hard time after Mike's death, and I had obligations to fulfill, but I am free of that now and there is no reason for me to not live my life to the fullest. As said in that Chicken claymation movie, the only fences I face are those in my head. For some reason, those are always the hardest to break through.